The light at the end of the tunnel

I had been putting way too much hope into the job prospect from my client.

Today he came into work and told me that he's reconsidering the position.  "Sorry!"  It was kind of hard to not-be bummed about it for the rest of my day.  It's like, I'd been looking at this light at the end of the tunnel, a job where I'm not going to be bone-tired every day, looked down upon because it's food-service, benefits (like health care), a regular schedule.... and really, there was nothing there all along.  I turned down the place I wanted to live for nothing, an empty offer, something that was too good to be true.

Someday, I'll learn.

I fear that I'm just going to be stuck where I am and not moving up, just staying in mediocrity-ville in a meaningless job.

Breathe.  I'm going to keep on doing my comic.  I'm going to continue practicing and learning accordion.

And today marks the first day of not wanting to have a child in 2.5 years.